A timeline for interest/reference May 16’ Doing fingerprinting finally for my name change information, with be a few more months until I have my name change certificate and new birth certificate. I end up updating everything the day after, all at once I go to get a new licence, update my sin #, bank& get new cheques, gym, university info(soon photo ID), call phone company, etc. Note that I picked a small and spacious place to get my licence sorted, but their computer still popped up with them having to ask me outright/outloud if I have infact had a SURGICAL sex change, after I had already supplied them with all necessary paperwork and documents. I lucked out that they moved me to a computer to the side to sort it out, there was only one other customer around, and staff were respectfully not outrageous or loud, at the surgery question they seemed startled to have to ask, and simply turned the monitor towards me to see the question and I nodded. It was actually outdated, from a previous year the government changed it so that surgery was not necessary to change sex on the birth certificate, not to mention that it is already changed at this point of getting a licence. (It is surprising once one thinks about it where transition makes it very difficult for a person to just live comfortably, one is often forced to out themselves in their life, handing out their previous name and gender into someones hands and praying as they look at you trying to decide if they should be calling the police for fraud because you obviously cannot be the person on your ID or health card. I hadn't been called the cops on, though multiple thought I was trying to be fraudulent, I simply backtracked and left quickly, was humiliated in public, or had to clearly talk about sex change stuff with complete strangers to stop escalation. At worst, I was outed to the whole store or restaurant them in their "Shock or horror" about how I look or that people like me actually exist. This risk comes up more often than one realizes, having a drink out anywhere, concerts, socials, buying a case to bring home, to police, while doing monthly blood tests, at the: doctor, dentist, pharmacy, gym, bank, university, and acquiring/renewing Identification. Then through many layers of the government while you try to update everything so that you can have a social life again. You wonder what these strangers will pick, a range from them suddenly realizing, horrified, and going to tell their coworkers pointing you out, to loudly exclaiming about "the sex change person" in front of them while everyone starts memorizing you or snapping your pic, hopefully not after they previously threatened to call the cops on you.) Sept 16’ Time for surgery, S U R G E R Y Dadadaaadadaaaaaa!! Top surgery time, this means the surgeon slicing me open from just inside one armpit to the other, with an inch and a half gap in the very middle. The extra fat, skin, nipple & areola, and lobules/ducts(for nursing) is gutted out. If you prep your place ahead of time (I piled pillows to help me sleep semi sitting during recovery, moved kitchen stuff I would use onto the main shelves so I didn’t have to raise my elbows to chestheight, and I attatched a stretch cord to my fans lightpull so I could get settled then pull within reach to turn off the light) it won’t be too difficult. For myself it was surgery midday, throwing up a bit after coming out of anesthesia, and waiting a bit for my stomach to settle before eating a bit of supper, getting a nap, going to the washroom in a couple hours, and tidying up the room before reading and sleep. The next morning I was heading home and making easy meals for myself. I didn’t end up using painkillers at all after I left the hospital but I do have good pain tolerance. The bandage changing was difficult and throw-up worthy, especially for the nipples/areolas which looked like they came from a zombie at first, I would plan a relaxed day following bandage removals. I remember saying that I was sad to say goodbye to my nipple piercings and my Doctor said that I could get them re-pierced afterwards, I looked at her like she was insane. I knew most people don’t get to keep anything that looks like a nipple, and that is how it ended up for me. Recovery went fairly well, EI was easier to arrange than I expected and it was 6 weeks until I was back to work, and the gym. Nov 16’ Body hair becomes more excessive, voice seems exceptionally low most of the time. It is a shock to try to sing still. I have heard it explained as trying to learn how to play a new instrument but I would say that it is different than that. It is more like picking up the same old instrument (say a guitar) and suddenly it plays like a broken saxophone. You try to play along to the song that you have played a hundred times but it all comes out as random saxophone sounds. First you have to find out all the notes you can manage, figure out where your natural range is, then work hard at improving the notes and moving around within your range. You have to learn how to use the broken saxophone left because you’ll never have a guitar again, since you are inexperienced with making reasonable sounds, it is going to take a while. I also am slightly convinced that a great deal of men sing a lot of songs with little range, more like saying the lyrics with some sort of beat in mind. It’s a good fucking thing too, means I can sing some stuff anyway.
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