So this semester, I'm taking a philosophy course. And apparently, a big part of philosophy is thinking about God or a higher power. It made me think a lot about high school when I was majorly into the whole Christian thing. In particular, it made me think a lot about why I started being...we'll say less enthusiastic about it. Don't get me wrong, I still do believe in the idea of a higher power. But what I believe doesn't exactly go with the Christian ideal. There's just too many conflicting ideas in the Bible, but I do like most of Jesus' teachings. Anyway, To go along with this I thought I'd post a poem that I wrote in high school around the time that I was starting to doubt pretty much everything I'd grown up believing. It's one that I'm particularly po So "Read More" to have a look. Dying FaithI feel myself falling away and there's nothing I can do
there's no one who can help me, there's nothing to hold onto I've seen this coming for a while now and I thought I could erase it but now that I'm slipping down I know I was only post-poning this I feel so scared because I know about whats to come I wasn't always the one that was falling, once I was the watching one I watched in confusion as he threw his life away binge drinking every weekend, throwing his friends into dismay I'm sorry everyone, I love you and I wish you'd understand I wish that you could see past the exterior to my outstretched hand If only you could help me, pull me out of this mess that would just be so easy, it would keep me from distress but there's nothing anyone can do, I've heard every sermon and still I turn away, it seems my fate has been determined I don't know how this ends but the beginning was nice wherever I am now is a spiral, and my heart has turned to ice I wish I could tell you that everything will turn out fine but it seems like everything I do makes me more and more confined I don't know if I'll make it out of here as my heart builds up these walls but if I'm here for all eternity, listen for my silent calls
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Sara
1/22/2011 10:37:03 pm
glad you posted this...i've been thinking alot about how things were back when we'd go to church and never swear and be "good christians"
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