Ugh. I am in so much pain right now. I recently had my tonsils removed, and despite the painkillers, I'm still in enough pain that I want to break things.
My surgery was in Saskatoon, where my best guy friend lives. I was looking forward to being able to see him and hang out. But that didn't happen. He lives with his grandparents and his psycho ex. His psycho ex hates me because she thinks I'm a threat and I'm gonna make out with him and "steal" him from her. I tried calling and she yelled at me about how I wanted him to go to my grad 3 years ago, and she blocked my number. I can't talk to the person I've been closest with for roughly 7 years because his psycho ex who thinks she still has a chance to get back together with him, thinks I'm gonna be all over him or something. I'm just completely pissed about this. And I'm angry at him for not doing something about it. I haven't talked to him in months. FML. So recovering from surgery, can't talk to my best friend, and on top of that, I was kinda dumped by the girl I've been sort-of seeing. We weren't serious or exclusive or official or anything, but it still hurts. It was a semi-mutual thing, but I did really like her. And she got me rainbow roses. *sigh* Ok. I got most of the whining out of my system now.
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Yes, I know. I need to remember to blog more. My life has kinda been taken over by school lately. I recently wrote a test for a class that I HATE but need for my major, and I walked out feeling like such a failure. I studied my ass for that test, but it was just so ridiculous. I kinda ended up drinking my face off later that night because of how crappy I felt about it. Hurry for unhealthy coping mechanisms!
On a somewhat related note, I've been feeling incredibly insecure lately. I'm broke to the point where it's affecting my social life, which affects my entire self-concept. So already feeling insecure because I'm not getting my usual fix of being social and releasing endorphins and all that good stuff, feeling like I fail at school, and just feeling generally unstable. I might actually be considering going on some sort of medication, but I can't afford it. Meds for physical sickness have already significantly depleted my bank account this semester. Anyways, so far this weekend I've been a total slacker, so I'm gonna get some homework done. xoxo |
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The one with estrogen. Bisexual, student, poet. Intrigued? Well good thing there's an entire blog for you to read then. Archives
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