God, it's been a while. I have a legitimate excuse of not having internet access and working all summer though. I think that's a pretty good reason for not updating. So, lets have a look at how my summer went, shall we? Finding work was definitely off to a slow start, but I did get a job that I love and will be continuing with said job for the school year. I managed to avoid major drama for most of the school year as I was working all the time and didn't have much time for a social life, and no social life = no annoying drama. Although now it feels like because I got about 3 months free of drama, I am now being bombarded with it. Everyone's got their problems, and somehow, I'm the person they wanna talk to about them. No clue how this happened. I usually make it pretty clear that I generally hate people. (Why did I decide to go into counseling as a profession again?!?!) Mostly, over the summer, my belief that people are douchbag covered bastards with asshole coating was proven true. My mom called over the summer to tell me that our cat, gizmo, was run over. Not because he was out on the road and someone didn't see him, but because he was IN OUR DRIVEWAY and someone served into our driveway so that they could run him over. I hate people so fucking much. That's not to say that I don't like anyone. I like persons. But as a collective group, people are fucking idiots. I do actually occasionally get glimpses of hope in humanity though. And as much as I generally like to hole up and ignore everyone, doing so tends to make me bitter (surprise!) and I have to go be around people to make sure that I get some endorphins and don't turn into a complete bitch. That being said, I'd like to apologize to my roommate for not getting enough people time this summer and being grouchy all the time. I'll try to update more often this year and toss up some more poems. I'm gonna even try and write some new ones this year. I feel like I've just been ignoring my creative side for a while and am going to burst if I don't let some of my angst out. But for now, it's time to say adieu.
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Oh my. I really haven't posted in a while. Sorry about that. Summer will be a great opportunity to do more blogging and less studying. Also I am looking forward to being able to read for pleasure, and not just read textbooks anymore.
I thought stress in my life would be over as soon as I was done school, but I forgot about something that's been a significant source of stress since high school: drama. I usually try to stay away from any and all sources of drama, but it's one of those things that has a habit of seeking me out. I really don't know if I can handle it. People don't realize how broken I really am, and tend to lean on me a lot and I don't know if I can support them when I can barely keep myself alive. Right now I'm suffering from both physical and emotional wounds. Physical wounds because the road looked at me funny, so I used my mad ninja skills to attack it. To the untrained eye, it may have looked like I fell, but I was totally in control of the situation. I'm also trying to keep myself sane and in a healthy state of mind as my dog, Jet, who I've had for 8 years recently passed away. I'm so broken because of it. She was such a great dog. I love her so much. She was the only one who was always there for me no matter what all throughout high school. She would always cuddle up with me when I was sick or upset. If there's one thing I'm good at, it's covering up pain. I had four years of high school to perfect that art. Outside, I look like I'm fine. But inside I'm 2 inches away from breaking. |
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